The Plan

I had a plan. I remember being in 10th grade English class and Ms. Leteracka had us dream about what we wanted to be when we grew up. I knew exactly what that was for me. Finding the "one", have some babies and own a boutique. A cute little shop with my favorite things and maybe a coffee shop too. I would have a nanny. The best of both worlds. I don't really know where this dream came from for me. I never saw someone that had these things. But it was what I wanted. A seed planted deep within my heart.

Life played on. I graduated from High School, went to college, settled into my career. Met the "one" and had two precious babies. THEN my heart began to stir. I started dreaming..those dreams turned into jumping into my creative side, which I never really knew existed for me. My house was not decorated. I was not a crafter in the slightest. I wanted to make personalized burp cloths, that was all. That led me on a 6 year journey to owning a thriving business called Stinkin Cute Designs. But it wasn't like I had dreamed it. It was hard, it was draining, it was stressful. It took its toll on me. Changed me. I became consumed with my business. I lived and breathed it. The best of me went to my business and the rest was for my family.

Two years ago the Lord rescued me. When I was in a place of not knowing I needed to be rescued. I was just living. On my own strength every single day. Giving each day by what  I only had left. Still creating, still sewing. still thriving in my business year after year. The Lord whispered to me so quietly this is not the life I have for you. There is so much more. Not even really knowing what that meant for me. I was ready to let the Lord lead me. For the first time. I'm In. All In.

August 1st. Such a sweet day. I said goodbye. To a 6 year life with Stinkin Cute Designs. Staying Home is usually what happens when new mamas have babies. Mine are 10 and 7. Finding my way. Learning how to hand the best of me over to my families. To let go of deadlines and promotions. Welcoming cooking lessons and craft projects. Before I knew it...my life started being filled with amazing sweet moments of just conversations, laughter, moments of joy, quietness in the day. These are moments I would have missed by sewing the day away.

When He leads you to something you do not know. Trust anyway. It took me so long to let go and let Him lead me. His desires for your life, can't compare to your dreams. No matter how big or small.