Daring to Dream

Last Fall with embarking on a new season of officially being a SAHM I was recommended a Bible Study by a sweet friend. Restless by Jennie Allen. After one view of this study I was all in. I didn't even care if it was just me or a study with friends. Every word she spoke in that short youtube video spoke to the depths of my heart.

It began a challenge for me. To see the threads of my life. Where I have been, where I am, and what God has for this life for me. Life is never how we imagined or planned it. But life is such a gift, more than I could ever have fathomed as a child. You see where you have been as a series of moments. But all have formed you up into this moment. Helped create you into the person, wife, mother, friend that you are at this very moment. As all the things I had truly wanted have lined up into my life. During this study, I was challenged to dream. Realizing I haven't dreamed bigger than what was infront of me. From wanting to meet my husband in my college years, to dreaming of a family as newly weds, to the wife and mother my heart was wanting to be.

What you love, you hardly realize it as a thread it your life because it comes so natural to you. Without thinking its a part of you. What you crave, what you love, what fills your cup on a daily basis. Are these things more than just little things that I just love, or are they part of a bigger dream I haven't dared to dream?

Motherhood is wonderful, challenging, blessed, and scary thing. You are raising these little people. In the beginning its teaching these babies to walk, talk, sleep and eat. Then its all of their firsts in life and soaking up their chubby cuteness. Then the harder things start, from life lessons, helping them learn and getting a glimpse of the people they are starting to be. I remember a moment in our moms group and a very wise woman one said, "You never know you are raising". As Jenna grabs life by the horns and jumps in with both feet and does it well. I am in awe of her fearlessness. She knows without hesitation who she is, who she loves, who loves her and she can be anything. My heart overflows at the twinkle in her eye. But she challenges me and doesn't even know it. What dreams haven't I had the courage to chase.

2015 this is what you look like to me. Never have I had a year begin this way and I couldn't be more excited about it.